Yeah, so here’s my update.

I went on that date with Mr. Lawyer from POF. He was nice enough I guess, but I didn’t really feel any attraction. He was totally into me though which was nice. We started off with a drink at one place, moved to dinner at another, then finished with Starbucks before I wanted to head home.

He was polite and offered to pay for everything (I ended up getting free dinner though because there was something wrong with my dish so he didn’t pay, and I offered to pay for Starbucks) and also offered to drive me home, but I declined.

There wasn’t really anything wrong with him per se, other than I think he was just trying too hard to be charming and suave. But that’s a fault everyone has. I also kept thinking about Mr. Wolf and comparing the two, which of course is a bad idea.

So anyway, don’t know what’s happening with Mr. Lawyer. I suppose if he calls me again I might try going out with him to see if he’s a little different. If not, oh well. My friend’s husband said I did all the right things on the date which is reassuring. My major hangup is that I don’t know how to go on a date. So this was a learning experience. I felt almost normal. Weird.

Onto the man with the delicious wolfish grin.

So I called and left him a message on Wed. night letting him know that I’m not working in the industry anymore, and then also following up about the party invitation for tomorrow.

He called me today on his lunch (waking me up from a daydream about him, funny enough!) and we talked about why I left my job and my plans, etc. blah blah blah.

Then I turned it to more personal topics and he told me he couldn’t come to the party. He had a decent excuse but I’m still bummed. I should have expected it though, things have never worked out for me before, why should they now?

He said he still wanted to share food photos and descriptions with me, but when I suggested we also check out some resto’s and stuff too, he didn’t seem too into that. I don’t feel that I was coming on too strongly or anything. If he wants to be friends or bond over this food stuff or whatever, I am treating him the same as if he was one of my gal pals with the same interests. Why is getting all weird over that?

I told him I thought he was interesting at some point in the conversation and he said thanks but the convo sort of fell flat. I wish I remembered more details for you all! Anyway I told him to give me a call if he wanted to hang out, and that I would re-send him the recipe & photo he wanted to see. He mumbled something about being really busy, or lack of time or whatever. Wahh wahh. Rejection! Way to make me feel important, bro…

So that’s it. I guess yet another crush has fallen flat, and I have once again found myself in the friend category. I just don’t get it! I have tits! I’m a model! Why don’t guys want to date me?

I even called my brother to ask him his opinion on this. He thinks that Mr. Wolf either a) just wants to be friends, b) is really shy but still possibly likes me or c) still might be closet-gay. This doesn’t really help me.

Bah! Can someone please find me a good man in Toronto????